Not to worry is the most common habit we never have I wish to share more of this with you and everyone around me that matters more than a handshake to me like you a raft in a stormy tide my brightest torch in the darkest night but I rather choose to do all of this for myself I will include you in this story before I decide to break the circle and yes please grab my hand and I promise you to hold fast onto it before I let go the stakes were just too high win you and lose whats mine a life with no content a life so hard and bent a life so beautiful and everything I wanted back then who knows if this had fixed the hole you had inside the hole I loved so much that made you what you are and made me break in to your house every night thousands of footsteps are no constant in this sand whilst in concrete forever they could be as some pretend but even the most stable foundation has it cracks so every breaking wave will rinse those footprints devours you and me and a bunch of memories holds fast onto us and carries us with the currents back to sea though we hold us tight wrapped in our arms while we twist and whirl we will freeze forever well at least as long as we can feel I couldn‘t stand her smile the pain she shared with you her place taking my place that wasn‘t mine to loose there‘s nothing I had claimed nothing that I dare choose I didn‘t want it filled I wanted you in the dark in greys and browns and golds blending out my spark wanting me to be the only thing that makes you smile no hurting sound in my head no voice that‘s left in my head no more regrets enough I had